I be at the point of not knowing what to do in moving forward with this foundation and cancelling it, is and was truly not off the table. Yesterday this was one of the cases because I am not making one dime from this and I have to pay for this website to be up every month and all the additives that is needed in promoting or getting the word out there so others can know that there is someone that cares and wants to be a support. Nothing is given to me free or no one has stepped up and said," Reggie let me help you out in general or financially," and sadly, not even my own 1 biological brother. So yes, discouragemnet, lonliness, hopelessness, powerlessness, sadness, hurt, rejection, overwhwelmed, fears, worthiness and depression have been there for me for sure. Some days intense than others but still feel the effects though. I work at other companies making them richer inorder to pay my own bills and behind on my car note to be frank, as we speak. The extra money that I had coming in, I chose to continue to reinvest in this foundation I started at the expense of my very own bills. I was homeless, car can be reposed at any moment while being behind 2 months of payment and basically broke. Why would I continue to put my hard earned money into something that is not giving me any finacial yield to at least keep it going and leaves me financially behind month after month? I became homeless and can easily go back if I continue to pour money into an investment that is not helping me out financially. I give out my own pocket to help others along the way because I can relate with their situations, why, why, why? I can relate and care and I know I sound crazy in continuing to chase my own tail but somehow my faith is diminishing day after to day to the point I may need to come to the acceptance that I bit off too much than I can chew and to go and work for these other companies to make them richer as I relinquish my dream or passion so I can stay grounded in reality. I am still here and have not pulled the plug yet even though it still looms over me daily.